A vision Amongst Fire

you know what.. I keep wondering all the way home and all the way to school : why can’t we just get the same reaction the Israelis have in “emergencies”? we don’t even look at it as an emergency. Every time I question this, I come to realize that the meaning of life to us is very connected to our unbreakable belief that it’s not the military aircraft  that takes our souls out of our bodies. we live, we learn, we shop, we party, and we tease the enemy. Today, in specific, I recognized the way I look to things for the first time. While having nerve tremors being in a cab whose driver was acting normally as if nothing was happening around, I made up my mind to imitate him. I turned my head and fixed my eyes on the world that was moving outside the window. However, it all failed me, trying to convince my frightened self that no unexpected guided skyrocket was to fall over some other cabs or cars that were sharing me the view of the moving world out there. I turned to stare, without getting myself being noticed, at the driver, who favored to speak up, guessing he would eliminate the stress seen in the passengers’ movements and whispers. He very comfortably said that a rocket had destroyed part of his house during last night’s escalation. The moment I heard that, I was like ” seriously? And you’ve come to work??!! “. Nevertheless, I had to shut up my shocked thoughts when he said ” Al Hamdo Le ALLAH , thank God!”. I felt I was, in front of these two greatly meaningful words, a very little bug that was badly smashed. I could form a new look at my life as  a Palestinian, Gazan girl who must be proud of living among such people of honorable manners, whose belief covers all defects and turns them into merits. Yes, death/martyrdom in Islam, danger, fire, rockets, bombing, and assassination are seen by us as merits. We go out no matter how dangerous being outdoors could be, only because we are eager to be faithful to our duty, and only then would we see how death is worthy, and this by all means shows how different we are from the cowards, belonging to the enemy of the world, to the enemy of peace, to the enemy of stability, to the enemy of the right of the Palestinian resistance, to the enemy of the truth, to the enemy of innocence ,  that is to be the so- called  Israel